Is this the time yet? huh.

Okay..
I admit that I've started to feel bored and lifeless.

Been trying hard to not touch about that,
To not so care about that, to hide it away...

But apa boleh buat?
The life is still mine.

I'm the one that live and feel it.
I'm the one that understand is it now satisfy me.
I'm apparently the one and the only one.

"Go.. go for it. What are you waiting for?"
Well, I know many of you have been telling me this since years ago.
"Wait la.... Wait. I wish to... but.."
This has always been my answer.. hahaa, or excuses?
But.. What was i doing? What was i thinking?
Entahlah... I wonder as well.

But somehow this calling is being stronger and stronger now
Right inside, right deep enough.
Bolehke, I...? Can I really.. start going for it?

I know you guys will support me, damnly.
But you, will you... too?

I think I'm struggled.
The life now proves me even more of what i really want...
Indeed. and I'm inneed. :'(

The dream still remain unchanged and clear.
Unfortunately the path is getting blurer and further.

So by me,
Chryss

5.00am..

5 am in the morning..
why am i still awaking?
and my eyelids never feel dropping at all..
only anxiety and worries go round and round,
i'm scared.. i'm so scared..
i'm praying, and i hope God will get and save me..
i just cant stop praying...

please...