7. What Would You..huh?

1:43.. i'm still awake. hahaa..

What would you do, when you fall on sleepless night again?
What would you do, when you don't know what to do but just to idle?
What would you do, when you don't know what is right but you feels the wrong?
What would you do, when everything seems to get slow and is stopping to move forward?
What would you do, when you could hardly change but to see it spoilt instead?
What would you do, when you look at the sky and wishing so much to get up there?
What would you do, when you've started to think of all these points?

What would you do, if you were me?

I wonder...

6. Hello...there.

Wow... it's been long...
So long since the last time i blog.

Well all these while...I've gone through tons.

Something happy; Something sad;
Something sweet; Something pain;
Something satisfying; Something tiring.
However... I'm glad to get'em all.
At least, this is what a normal life sounds.

I miss this place actually.

A personal space that I own them all by myself;
A runaway space other than my own room and blanket;
A yelling space where I can shout madly with no hesitation needed;
A chryssy space like how my title and personal message are voicing.
At least,I am who I am,with no misgivings,apprehension nor grievance.

I have to apologize. To my blog. To its readers.
Of course, to myself, the so me myself...
Where I've been gone? Where I've been through?
I've abandoned my personal space
Due to stupid busyness and f*king excuses...

Now... I'm back.
Welcome back, chryss.
When...will you be here again?
I don't know...darling.
I don't f*king know anything...

Now...
I'm sad. I'm torn.
I'm tired. I'm broken.
I need to squat. I need to cry.
A dim corner to get into my hell of depression.

I'm so so so so so unhappy...completely.
Can anyone hear me?

I wanna go home...